Monday, June 18, 2012

GRADIENTS



New York City is a fat island of disillusionment.
Everything means something, and something means nothing.
The wealthiest shmuck draped in capitalism resides on the same block as a penniless hobo donned in poverty.
And me, a lower class suburban white girl wards off the surge of Harlem’s chivalrousness to make up love stories out of glances from the cocky Soho elite.
Every day my heart breaks and rebuilds itself.

Everything I truly love is rooted in a hate for ever making me endure the kind of illness love is.
My marriage to the cancer of giving too much to save that love:
To obey that love, each day new guidelines to cement my insanity to my personality,
To follow the ambiguity of love’s expectations. 

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